This is the beginning of a chat I had in the Hope Mobile with a Wisconsin friend, Erica Mitchell.
Today’s talk is quite a bit of the details (and I do mean details – as in possible trigger warning, which are important to her story) of Erica’s story of the traumatic pregnancy loss of her son, Sheldon, including her questioning why God would make promises to her that He wasn’t keeping.
Erica does a great job of sharing how she saw God preparing her for the loss and walking with her as she went through the drawn-out trauma. She also does a great job of sharing the raw realness of not understanding what was happening or why it was happening, and being confused and angry with God.
This is the same seesaw many of us find ourselves on. We know we desperately need Him to get us through this suffocating darkness, but at the same time we feel like it is His fault for leading us to this painful place.
Most of us desire and even beg God to see our child in heaven. We close this episode with Erica getting that chance and being angry that God would dare show her Sheldon with Jesus in heaven after taking him away from her.
Erica Mitchell is a daughter of the King. 
She loves being a wife of 9 years to Justin and the mother to 3 sons: Shylo 8, Shay 6, Sheldon (growing up in heaven) and rainbow baby girl Zoey. She believes worship is a lifestyle and loves to create with lyrics, music, and makeup. She has a calling and anointing in her words and voice to encourage and bring freedom to others in their personal relationship with Jesus. Her faith and heavenly perspective are contagious and overflows into all areas of her life.
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Links Mentioned in this episode:
Watch Erica in Bride shocks groom as she sings to him walking down the aisle “From This Moment” YouTube video (which has over 15 million views).
Read a recent Expressions of Hope blog written by Erica: Child Loss, PTSD and God.
Connect with Erica on Facebook or email her at: jemitchell4ev@yahoo.com.
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Birthdays:
Joshua Nicholson was born on October 9 and is forever 29.
Niyam Deloatch was born on October 10 and is forever 20.
Mitchell was born on October 12 and is forever 17.
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Very much looking forward to hearing the rest of your conversation together!
If God is with us as He says in His word, why is He sitting by, watching us go through so much hurt, pain and grief and not step in to help?
Hi Karen, that is such a loaded question, and one that Believers ask so often when they go through dark and hard times. Wayne Jacobson loves to have conversations about these kinds of things. I recommend you look him up and read his blogs and listen to his podcasts. He also has videos on YouTube (I would start with Transitions series) and books (I recommend all of them, but a good one to start with is He Love Me.)